Life's Lessons with Jai

This was the first Thanksgiving in my “empty nest” life. My youngest two daughters were away at school and AIT.   My oldest who’s been staying with me works the same place for the season that I have been working part time so we were mostly not together due to our Black Friday/Thanksgiving work schedule. I thought it would be harder than it was. And there were times I thought I’d catch myself sitting with a glass of Jameson and Ginger Ale and crying myself through my first Thanksgiving as an “empty nester”. I can say it was not the best feeling. I was lonely, missing my daughters and feeling like the holiday blues were aiding in me missing my old life when we were all a family. The holidays have been hard but this feeling is new. Now I am learning to talk myself through these times and even look for the rainbow in my cloudy reality.   I realized while it was difficult I am coming to my peace which is something I have needed for long time. I am looking at moments of iso

Fall Back As Daylight Savings Time approaches this weekend and we annually fall back I have thought much this week about "falling back" and taking a time out. This transition home has not gone as smoothly as I had hoped. To be honest, it has been rough! The good thing is it has been a continued lesson. My feeling like I needed something else to define what happiness looked like was causing me conflict as well as being an unnecessary distraction; as I had life matters to deal with. And while I have been learning lessons, I am sure I have been missing key things because my focus was on the wrong things. I needed to silence out the distractions. I now find myself home in bed on a  Friday evening  relaxed and at peace. Phone on do not disturb, and just happy to be! With so much chaos going on in my life I am finding my center. It is not based on who is attached to me. It is based on my love for me being attached to me. It is me being damn good with my own company. With so