Don’t let the dysfunctional become your familiar. 

I wanna be able to sit with you and vibe with you. While I bask in what you make me feel and give me the option to make a decision if I wanna ride with this or seek for different. I want you to feel what I feel and you not leave me open to be hurt just one more time. I want to be secure that I know I’ve found the one that I can be easy with. 
Wanting to be open to love post divorce has indeed had it’s challenges. I get tired of believing in something that keeps proving to not be beneficial to me . 
And you can do the introspective approach and have concluded that it still isn’t you, but in fact that the  love you want to believe in may not be your reality.  Then what do you do? Keep praying for change? Factor in your old dysfunctional ways in some ways at least allowed you some brief happiness. 
Coming to the conclusion that you still believe in holding out for what moves your heart and have this insane belief that there is still hope that lies inside of you gets old and makes a person weary. Then comes the reality of the insane possibility of your familiar dysfunctional ways being a real life fairy tale come true. And you find yourself praying that at least this one time dysfunction can work out. Then you factor in all the hurt and betrayal. You recount the tears that seemed endless. Then you realize you still have  much work and healing to do.  ~secure your own oxygen mask first.  Don’t let the dysfunctional be your normal. 

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